It’s hard to believe it’s taken me this long to admit it: people suck. Everyone sucks. My life sucks. My family I cant even call a family, so yea, I guess they suck too. I thought my friends were good, but a few of them are just filthy, compulsive liars, so yea, most of them suck too, except for maybe a handful. I’m so physically and emotionally drained that it has take over my life completely. I’m literally getting myself physically sick over everything. So much for making progress. I can literally trust no one nowadays. Because of you, I have really lost my faith in everything. So much for being one person I can count on. I used to. But that’s not gunna happen ever again. I’m soo fuckin done with being the strong, always happy person I always am. Why do I have to put on a smile for you fake people? That’s right. I don’t have to. So I’m done. Don’t fuckin mess with me, and I mean everybody. Cause I’m beyond fuckin tired of being strong and good for everybody else when I get treated like shit in return. It’s literally killing me inside to have to smile in your face when I just wanna scream. Cause the truth is, more than half of you don’t even give a shit what I go through. You probably don’t expect it right? It looks like I have the perfect fuckin life right? Well get a freakin reality check cause I don’t. And for those of you who tell me it could be worse, your soo wrong, and if you plan on telling me that to “make me feel better” don’t even bother. I used to ask myself why I would get myself so worked up to the point of a breakdown over all this. Truth is, I’m tired. I really do stand alone in this cause no one will ever understand. What kind of life is it when you constantly have to check behind you to make sure no one’s gunna stab you in the back? What kind of life is it when you get yourself physically sick to the point you’re literally shaking from stress, nerves, and anxiety. It’s not a healthy life, that’s for sure. So therefore I’m living for myself. I’m no longer gunna smile in people’s faces like everything’s okay when it’s not.
Oh, and since everyone from my fuckin school thinks it’s okay to follow my Tumblr now, I guess you got to see how I finally broke. Is that what you wanted? Congratulations.
Making a new Tumblr. Bye.
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I can just feel it. Something isn’t gunna go my way and it’s gunna ruin my entire day, and by 1st period ima wanna go back home and just lay in bed and crawl up in a ball with my PJs on and never leave cause its just gunna be on of those weeks. And dammit, if this headache doesn’t go away and I wake up and my mother says “Take an advil and go to school!” (like she always does) ima really have a serious problem and I can bet you I will be doing zero work tomorrow. I feel like I have a headache every freakin day. What the crap…
Cause if you think about it, unfortunetely, life could end in the blink of an eye. Tomorrow everything can change drastically. So might as well live in the moment, right? Tell people you love them now. Never hesitate to do so. Think about how different tomorrow might be.
I swear that made my night<3
That’s gunna be me and my daddy one day :) It’s funny cause if my dad still had his mustache he would look exactly like Charlie lol
